Zen Muskoka Yoga Studio
Man, oh man. The number of times I've talked myself in and out of things are endless. That tiny voice keeps rearing it's annoying and discontented head within my thoughts, keeping me within the limits of my comfort zone and safety nets.
Well, on this balmy February day, I'm saying a big screw you to myself!
It's time for me to get out of my own way. I'm choosing not to listen to my boring brain anymore. That little voice, like an overprotective and neurotic parent, keeps me stuck. I will admit, the chatter has come up with some pretty cool things once my gut decided to act upon them. It has also kept me physically safe (probably shouldn't pick up that hitchhiker...) and comfortable. But more often than not, it talks me out of experiences and situations where my heart says YES. My gut, my heart, my intuition, whatever you'd like to label it, wants me to push through, follow though, and get messy. It doesn't mind if I fail or succeed. My heart has way more courage than my mind. So my challenge to myself is to step gracefully over the edge, to be brave enough and tell myself to shut it, and to roll with the butterflies in my belly.
I keep thinking that there are big things on the horizon and that there is so much more I could be doing. But in just thinking "there must be something better", I am setting myself up for constantly seeking without actually acting. Those thoughts allow me to feel unsatisfied and unsteady which serve no other purpose than to keep me firmly rooted in my stubborn ways. The moment I start thinking less and acting more, it's remarkable how quickly circumstances change! Be it positive or negative change, change is always good - even if we don't realize it in that moment.
I'm not advising you to stop thinking all together. It's our minds job to think, analyze, weigh pros and cons... But I am challenging you to check in with your heart from time to time. The more often we connect with gut feelings, those instinctual instantaneous sensations, the less time we allow ourselves to talk us out of it: the faster we will act under the guidance of our own true integrity.
Just as in a yoga practice, things get uncomfortable and sweaty and awkward but underlying it all is grace, compassion, and serenity. Once we acknowledge those thoughts of vulnerability, faster and faster our heart steps in and nudges us in the right direction of either surrender or perseverance. And both are fine by me!
The yogi's of Muskoka